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Gustav Elijah Åhr 🐣

lilgothpeep

Pre-T⚧ Personal @deceasedboi Traggot. Truscum. 17 yr old goth boy. 🌈 Ugly, cute and dying Gustav's legacy will live through this account.

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"Finally on my own, see me on the road. Been a minute since I visit, hate to see you getting old And I wished I never blamed you for the things you didn't know. Sometimes I wish I still had you to keep me on my toes. How it feel pops? To see your young boy getting money, got that deal pops, put a little back up in your pocket. Here pops, I can pay you back for college now for real pops. Finally living like you live.  He used to pray for them better days 'til they came 'round. Hate where I'm headed but I can't slow down. Pray that I feel the same when I come down, hey. Been tryna make a change, I don't know how. Maybe I was meant to take the long way 'round? Pray that I feel the same when I come down." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"Yes I love my ugly boy So rough and tough. Don't care about anything but me And I just love him cause he's so crazy. Just crazy about me.  You fuckin' mental, my crazy little girl. Maybe the most psycho chick in the world. You mystical shit just's not physical. What you and me got's unfuckwithable. Respect me receive my protection I'm always right by your side like a weapon. Love me I grant you there will be love. Fuck with my girl there will be blood. All my bitches love me, aw man it's tough. One crazy girl's more than enough This is not ordinary love." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"But I can't do this alone Sometimes I just need a light. If I call you on the phone Need you on the other side.  So when your tears roll down your pillow like a river. I'll be there for you. I'll be there for you. When you're screaming, but they only hear you whisper. I'll be loud for you, But you gotta be there for me too.  But you gotta be there for me too.  Last year took a toll on me, But I made it with you next to me. Around the world and back again. I hope you're waiting at the end." (I can't find a lot of pictures of Gus anymore. It's really hard to post because I don't want to post anyone else.) - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"I don't care about my health. Really I'm just trying to numb the pain. Love and hate it all just feels the same. Won't say I'm affected by the fame But even my momma know I changed. So I get drunk till I can't feel. The love fake, the pains real. Got so many scars it ain't heal But I gotta soul bullets can't kill. Why I feel like cops just want to pop me? Pop's never had a pot to piss in. Probably pack a nine on his hip then sit beside me. Pray to God there's no triple six inside me. No I can't let the devil in my mind. Same time the church will turn you blind. Last time I heard a preacher preach a sermon All I heard him say was sinner's going to die And they will never get to see a Heaven. With all due respect fuck the reverend Cause I know life is doing 25. Praying for early death like it's a blessing. This for my people going through depression. This for the kids who never felt affection. This for the kids whose parents don't accept them. Saying they love everyone else except them. I know what it's like to feel alone. I know what it's like to need a home. I know what it's like to not know what it's like To have a love you can call your own." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"We've been looking for love in a world full of hate. Tell me what's it take, to find somebody true? Find somebody real, I don't need the fake And I don't need the lies, but the truth hurts. Now a days I need proof first I told her: "Baby we can fall in love but just make sure you love you first". I'm done falling for the wrong ones. I need someone for the long-run. I need someone that I know is down to ride for me when this shit is all done. She gave her love and her passion to me. Told me that she always had it for me. I never thought falling for someone would happen to me but,  You was all that ever mattered to me. I never thought I'd fall in love, girl. Never thought that shit would ever happen to me. If I had to tell the truth girl, really you was all that ever mattered to me." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"Take a trip into my garden. I've got so much to show ya. The fountains and the waters Are begging just to know ya.  And it's true, baby. I've been saving this for you, baby.  I guess it's something like a fun fair. Put gas into the motor. And, boy, I'll meet you right there. We'll ride the rollercoaster. 'Cause it's true, baby. I've been saving this for you, baby.  I need you to. Tell me right before it goes down. Promise me you'll Hold my hand if I get scared now. Might tell you to Take a second, baby, slow it down. You should know I, you should know. I-  I bloom just for you." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"Open your heart, open your mind to a new world, to a new world. Spread out your wings and learn to fly to a new world, to a new world.  Close your eyes and pray for something better than this world has to give. Make it worth your time when you move on to whatever the hell is next. Know that you went in the end without a single regret. That you lived and loved and laughed and cried and followed your dreams.  You won't, you won't be alone in the end. You don't have to be afraid. You won't, you won't be alone in the end. You don't have to be afraid. Run free and wild, let your heart soar with the eagles. Run free and wild, let your love take over." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"All I really want to know. I already know. All I really want to say. I can't define. It's love that I need. My soul will have to wait 'til I get back and find Heina of my own. Daddy's gonna love one and all. I feel the break, feel the break, feel the break and I got to live it out, oh yeah.  Well I swear that I, I really want to know, I really, what I really want to stay, I cant define. That love make it go, my soul will have to.  What I really want to say, ah baby What I really want to say, is I've got mine. And I'll make it, yes I'm going up. Tell Sanchito that if he knows what is good for him. He best go run and hide. Daddy's got a new .45 And I won't think twice to stick that barrel straight down Sancho's throat. Believe me when I say that I got somethin' for his punk ass." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"Growing distance from your explanations. We're getting deeper in this mess. Take careful contemplation. I'd rather be spitting blood Than have this silence fuck me up.  This separation, time and space between us. For some revelation. You didn't even care to discuss. I'd rather be black and blue Than accept that you withdrew.  Aah, just tell me. Say anything. Anything hurts less than the quiet. Just tell me. Say anything. Anything hurts less than the quiet.  Used to give each other the world, every bit. Used to be the one you'd come to. When it'd all go to shit. Now I'm left here in the dust With the taste of broken trust.  And I don't wanna walk away. But you left me no choice. Only talking to myself here. Now you muffled your voice. I'd rather have broken bones And feel myself turn to stone." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"And it's been awhile Since I could say That I wasn't addicted It's been awhile Since I could say I loved myself as well. And it's been awhile Since I've gone and Fucked things up Just like I always do. And it's been awhile But all that shit Seems to disappear When I'm with you.  And everything I can remember As fucked up as it all may seem. The consequences that I've rendered Have gone and fucked things up again.  Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away. Just one more peaceful day.  It's been awhile Since I couldn't Look at myself straight. And it's been awhile Since I said, "I'm sorry." And it's been awhile Since I've seen the way The candles light your face. And it's been awhile But I can still remember Just the way you taste.  And everything I can remember As fucked up As it all may seem to be. I know it's me. I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"So how does it feel to know that someone's kid In the heart of America has blood on their hands. Fighting to defend your rights So you can maintain a lifestyle That insults his family's existence. Well, where I'm from we have a special Salute that we aim high in the air Towards all those pompous assholes Who spend their days pointing fingers. (fuck you)  Shhh quiet might piss somebody off. Like the heartbeat of this country when antagonized too long. I'll be damned if you count me in as part of your generous hypocrisy. Collecting enemies.  Tabloid gossip queen worthless man (there's no need for us to bury you). Selfish agenda once again (right this way you've dug your own grave). I've had enough. It's time for something real. I don't respect the words you're speaking. Gone too far. A clone." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"Don't be that way. Fall apart twice a day. I just wish you could feel what you say. Show, never tell But I know you too well. Kind of mood that you wish you could sell.  If teardrops could be bottled, There'd be swimming pools filled by models. Told a tight dress is what makes you a whore. If "I love you" was a promise Would you break it, if you're honest. Tell the mirror what you know she's heard before. I don't wanna be you anymore.  Hands, hands getting cold. Losing feeling's getting old. Was I made from a broken mold? Hurt, I can't shake. We've made every mistake. Only you know the way that I break." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"I just pull up flexin', got a 30 on me now. Pussy boy keep runnin' mouth but my chain, man, it cost his house. VVS across my teeth, be your girl bought my meat and skeet. Why she always actin' up? Cause you a peasant, I'm glow'd up. Audi Coupe go fast, I swerve this shit and make it flip. Extended dick is by my hip, dat way with the shits. I'm too rich to throw these fists, man these bullets hit. Bitch I'm numb off all these opiates, don't give no shits.  Diamonds swang swang, Aquafina let it hang. Draco loaded, bloated, choppa it go bang bang. Spendin' bands and we throw it out the roof, roof." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"Show me a sign, show me a reason to give A solitary fuck about your god damn beliefs. I'm going blind, but one thing's clear. Death is the only salvation you'll fear. Brick by brick by brick. Brick by brick by brick.  What you call faith, I call a sorry excuse. Cloak and daggers murder the truth. The bitter taste, there's nothing else. I'll bow for your king when he shows himself. Brick by brick by brick. These walls begin to cave in. The house of wolves you built Is burning a thousand times.  Show me your face, show me a reason to think, My soul can be saved if I sell you my sins. I'm going blind, but one thing's clear. Death is the only salvation for me. Brick by brick by brick. These walls begin to cave in. The house of wolves you built Is burning a thousand times.  The house of wolves you built Will burn just like a thousand suns.  And when you die, the only kingdom you'll see Is 2 foot wide and 6 foot deep.  And when you die, the only kingdom you'll see.. Is two foot wide and six foot deep. And when you die, the only kingdom you'll see Is two foot wide and six foot deep." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"Street signs, so many street signs pass me by every night and I know tomorrow I won't recognize the world. Home bound, but I want to be home now. Two more months of empty faces standing there screaming up at me And I don't know why.  I wanna go home I wanna sleep in my own bed. I want a normal life again. Is this the end? Is this the end? No matter how hard I try, all I know is the road. All I know is the road.  Save me, can anyone save me? I don't know who I am anymore. This was supposed to be the dream. You don't see the pain in my eyes? You don't hear the pain in my words? I'm just stuck here cold and alone with no one beside me And I wanna go home." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"You know it's fucked when the pain feel nice. Cheap liquor on ice, nice. I'm tryna get you out my head tonight (tonight). I'm tryna get you out my fuckin' life (fuckin' life, right). Then we fucked, then she sucked me off twice. Then I left that bitch alone like I was right, fuckin' right (wrong). In your thong, smokin' strong outta bong. What the fuck, and I'm tryna make this song (hey, hey). Young white prick, I get a kick out hittin' licks. Watch how I kick out yo bitch, just so I could cut my wrist. Bitch, I'm tatted out my shirt, so I can't work, I make it flip. Pour my 40 in the dirt, then light my dutch and take a sip. I hear voices in my head, they tellin' me to call it quits. I found some Xanax in my bed, I took that shit, went back to sleep. They gon' miss me when I'm dead, I lay my head and rest in peace. I'm prayin' to the sky, I don't even know why, aye." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"Could it be you calling me down? My foolish heart turns at the stars. All that I am is all that you see. You don't need nobody else, and you're putting this all on me, forgive me.  I say you don't need nobody else. Feels like you don't got me so you feel like you've been by yourself. I've been feeling kinda down myself. I've been going through it as well. Girl, I guess time will tell. That's the problem, I ain't got any left. There's somethings I can't help, But you would make the time for me. Oh, isn't that something that I should know?" - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender
"I smell heartbreak on my hands. I feel sick to my stomach as I begin to stand. I see your outline in my bed. In the same spot I watched him rest his head.  I've done you wrong, I regret it. I write this song, tryin' to forget it. I feel this emptiness in my chest. It feels surreal, but I’m feeling stressed. I need to do something. I fucked up, for nothing. Now I gotta just tell someone. Tell someone what I've done.  Please bathe me now, wash me clean. Just set my heart on fire, Like gasoline. Bathe me now, wash me clean. Just set my heart on fire, Like gasoline. Oh no, like gasoline.  I wake up, the morning after. You call but I don’t answer And I can’t look you in the eye, No matter how hard I try. You deserve forever. Not a boy looking for better, But as long as you’re still here. I’ll try to keep you near." - - - - #gothboy #tattoos #bands #alternative #emo #korn #nineinchnails #suicideboys #bmth #godsmack#slipknot #gunsnroses #getscared #blackbear #crowntheempire #mcr #avengedsevenfold #askingalexandria #motionlessinwhite #marilynmanson #ofmiceandmen#theneighbourhood #suicideboys #arcticmonkeys #lilpeep #rippeep #alltimelow#alternativeboy#ftm #transgender

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