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@nathancha_

Nathan Avery Cha

nathancha_

damn pansexual non-binary boy from Austria 🌈trans liberation and caffeine are my passions🌈 ● artist @nathanxcha 🌟 ⬇⬇⬇ YouTube channel

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●transformative energies || warrior spirit● > wondering whether all those who claim to have derived inspiration from their pain ever considered it simply not being worth it. asking myself whether it'll ever get easier. when I know it does. 🍀 here's to those who are struggling or caught in a transformative period in their lives : I believe that things improve. gradually we find ways to survive. discover unexpected places of joy & healing. amidst the storm, there's spots of calm to take refuge in and dwell for a while. constant fight takes its toll but creates awareness. the beauty of the world sometimes seems infinitely magnified. and gratitude manifests itself in shooting stars gracing the nightly sky; pitch black and quiet. --- #affirmation #travel #csd #personalgrowth #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #christopherstreetday #art #igersgermany #pride #berlinpride #artistsoninstagram #queerart #advice #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
● with all things changing; I just wanted to state: I am me. I am non-binary. Transition is something I choose for myself but it's NOT me transitioning from female to male. It's me going from myself to myself with maybe some more confidence. I am whole & don't consider this trying to fix myself. It's an act of pure self love over the unwillingness of others to engage with my gender identity/expression in debth. It's me saying : I want to live my life as I see fit. I want to exist as the living paradox of an inter gender existence. I want to be the most ME I humanly can & make the most of everything that's given to me. ●● that's it. my transition so far. way beyond binary. --- #affirmation #travel #csd #personalgrowth #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #christopherstreetday #art #igersgermany #pride #berlinpride #artistsoninstagram #queerart #advice #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
high key obsessed with this photo of my back from the time I fell onto a flowerpot while doing art exhibition work + a pic of me being a cute tiny bear ●● #affirmation #travel #csd #personalgrowth #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #christopherstreetday #art #igersgermany #pride #berlinpride #artistsoninstagram #queerart #advice #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
●♡embrace change - the only real constant in life♡● || I've been living my life more aware as my non-binary self since a few years now and it's been tough & challenging but as I'm having this  capacity for change now; I'm excited to embrace it with all I can & become the more comfortable & balanced version of myself that's been dormant for way too long. It truly does to identify what keeps you from being your most immediate, authentic self and slowly working to overcome it. I'm always evolving and I'm grateful to have the space to learn, grow and cherish the challenges on my way. / I'm surrounded by a bunch of incredibly people on here; this planet, the interwebs and it's so goddamn rewarding to communicate with all of you ♡ --- photo by @annett.hudasch ☆☆ #affirmation #travel #csd #personalgrowth #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #christopherstreetday #art #igersgermany #pride #berlinpride #artistsoninstagram #queerart #advice #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
🌟I have the oddest relationship with the town I was born in. (VIE) I grew up mostly on the countryside but partially moved back to the city at 17 & attended fashion school here. When you've got a cheap public transport pass; you truly worry less. I went everywhere I could; I found adventures I didn't think were gonna happen to me. Went to fancy press events in make up, dress & hats made by me. Went to museums & fashion shows, got interviewed, featured on television, exhibited art; travelled. But soon I found that these other places longed for me as much as I longed for them. In the 4 years since I've graduated high school; I've lived in 3 different towns (apart from this one), 2 of them abroad. I don't understand the concept of home so much anymore; especially since my physical home tends to stir up mostly unpleasant and painful memories. My brain seems to have deleted the times of abundance, growth and creativity and only goes back to the darkest places. I don't have a lot of active contacts here. The place I should call home is filled with isolation and depression. I've grown to know myself elsewhere; realised that I am a fully formed professional in ways I need be; since my teen years. But I'm not a functional human. Never at home. Here, I crumble and falter and disintegrate into the darkest times of my life. I seem to forget about the creative force, that is me. The valued friend. The human. Here I am a worthless chunk of space garbage and it's disorienting. I want to remember my strength. Every day. I need to be aware.🌟 --- #affirmation #travel #csd #personalgrowth #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #christopherstreetday #art #igersgermany #pride #berlinpride #artistsoninstagram #queerart #advice #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
BERLIN, you've been a darling 💖 got to spent the greatest time here in Germany; from leftist, punk, queer n angry rap concert to queer & darling farewell party to goddamn PRIDE/CSD in Berlin (which tbh made my entire life) to getting to be on stage at @bushwig with some absolute darlings & seeing amazing drag performers, to the gay museum, grea(T!!) life events to hangs at @othernatureshop and watching #cabaret live. || I've been showered with friendship, affection & sparkly queerness and even tho a lot of realisations about being trans & out and about in this world came to me; I wouldn't change these experiences and what I learned from them for the world. ● thanks to everybody who made this time great ! --- p.s. pls don't report my boy nips. they just wanna live. as do I. ☆ ... #affirmation #travel #csd #personalgrowth #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #christopherstreetday #art #igersgermany #pride #berlinpride #artistsoninstagram #queerart #advice #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
Lazarus, my queen ●● glowing beneath the wreath of laurel | we know you're here to stay --- #art #artist #artistsoninstagram #drawing #drawingoftheday #queer #queerartists #sketch #sketchbook #gay #fashion #style #finearts
Here's to the people who never recognise the immense growth I've achieved as a person these past few years. Thank you for prompting me to have to be strong enough to love myself, affirm myself and recognise the labour I've put into becoming a balanced human being. Thanks for seeing my flaws first. For making me realise that I might not yet be there, self love wise, but for knowing my worth well enough to see that you're not accepting all of it. ●●● Part of my survival is derived from me shackling off the failures people project onto me. For realising that it's not me who's toxic but them. ●● Thank you for not seeing my success but the version of me I was a few years ago. The "girl". Who didn't. Cope. Thanks for still seeing that because you truly show me how far I've come and how f*cking strong I had to be to claw my way out of there. --- #affirmation #travel #radicalacceptance #personalgrowth #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #artistsoninstagram #art #igersgermany #drawing #artist #artistsoninstagram #queerart #advice #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
?what even is gender? ●● the more I progress in life, the more the concept of a binary gender reality confuses me. to quote myself "don't know how to be a woman but they won't let me be a man." one of the reasons I'm considering starting testosterone, is that I feel like my body should inhabit this middle ground/a balance of gendered traits naturally. I'm not a cis woman. I'll never be. That's a role I played for a long time but it's never something I understood. This realisation is a lonely one because to me, so many around me seem to have figured it out. I'm somewhere in the middle. A tomboy, an androgynous angel, a man. Women's spaces & movements propagated by TERFs scare me. I don't fit in any of them. It's like I'm a tiny animal trying to be a person. I'd like a bit of a beard, soft, long hair on my limbs that sparkles in the sun, a voice that resonates deep from within my chest. I'd like to wear skirts and make up and feel free and cute but not like a woman. Because I don't think I'll ever be... or know that emotion. Womanhood is a concept I don't get. I'd like to show affection; my raw gestures and physical proximity. Like tigers. --- #wanderlust #travel #erasmus #studyabroad #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #artistsoninstagram #art #igersgermany #drawing #artist #artistsoninstagram #queerart #gayart #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
here's a big shout out to the fantastic @cacaonibs for granting me the pleasure of their friendship. tbh you folks; I really think we don't credit queer friendships enough. the past few days hanging out with them have been so affirming, adventurous and fun and I can't even express how grateful I am that we totally randomly made each other's acquaintance in London. life's good 😊 --- #wanderlust #travel #erasmus #studyabroad #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #artistsoninstagram #art #igersgermany #drawing #artist #artistsoninstagram #queerart #gayart #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
~ pretty things from Berlin ~ ●● a lot of emotions about the past week + / CSD/Pride here made me realise a lot of things. Specifically that gender non-conformity still boggles people; even in the queer community (that is; if you're not a cis person doing drag or a cishet folk painting on a beard for the day). I'm realising more and more that, while I haven't medically transitioned, my steps to present more androgynous/align myself with who I am, have certainly conjured up lots of transphobic backlash that's been increasingly weighing me down. And I am still privileged in so many ways... --- #wanderlust #travel #erasmus #studyabroad #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #artistsoninstagram #art #igersgermany #drawing #artist #artistsoninstagram #queerart #gayart #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
☆ summer heart throb mode ☆ > along the road, I can be. in my own right, without your judgement, I can be. because there's a space for all of us. sometimes it matters to just.breathe.in. / 🎶 Mykki Blanco - High School Never Ends --- #wanderlust #travel #erasmus #studyabroad #berlin #germany #androgynousfashion #artistsoninstagram #art #igersgermany #drawing #artist #artistsoninstagram #queerart #gayart #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
wow, I had seriously the best times ever in Karlsruhe with the cute and amazing @cacaonibs , @jolean.zbovnik , @gayglitterghost and others. Very blessed to hang out with such darlings & can't wait to be queer memes together in Berlin this weekend. --- #wanderlust #travel #erasmus #studyabroad #karlsruhe #germany #androgynousfashion #artistsoninstagram #art #igersgermany #drawing #artist #artistsoninstagram #queerart #gayart #queerartist #lgbtq #igersgermany qpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender
BODIES ARE GREAT ● black, brown, mixed, white, fat, thin, hairy, smooth, disabled, able-bodied, trans, inter, cis, ... there is no one way to have a body. not one that is superior to the rest. every human body & soul inhabiting it, are worthy of respect, love and affection. if your body craves nourishment - nourish it. give it what it needs in food, intellectual stimuli, self care, social interaction, physical action. you alone know what's best for it and you alone decide what to do with it. ♡ ●●● how do you express body positivity ? --- #wanderlust #travel #kindness #selfcare #bodypositivity #radicalacceptance #androgynousfashion #artistsoninstagram #art #thisisantwerp #drawing #artist #artistsoninstagram #queerart #gayart #queerartist #lgbtq #lgbtqpia #drag #nathancha #modelling #model #malemodel #artschool #fashion #design #inspiration #fashion #fashiondesigner #idea #inspiration #transgender

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