This month I participated in the #busymamabookswap organized by @busymamabookclub and today is the reveal day! • My swap partner was @buzzedaboutbooks and she totally nailed it! I loved everything in the package! The Indigo Girl has been high on my TBR list, so I’m really excited to be able to read it and have it grace my shelves with its gorgeous cover! • I adore the Jane Austen socks in my favorite color, the bookmarks (including a quote from my favorite book character), and a print of the quote that inspired my book account name. I never told her about that quote so I’m very impressed! • It was a blast putting together a package to send to her as well! Thanks again to @busymamabookclub for putting together such a fun, well organized book swap!
My doctor cancelled my appointment today, but didn't tell me. And couldn't reschedule me today, either. Not FOR TODAY, but today. Because they are so booked. I'd been waiting for this day for over three months. #crushed would be an understatement. And sometimes, #whenitrainsitpours - I lost a long time friend because I think Drake is a bit creepy. And I'm not in my usual capable-of-handling-jabs mood, because of how disappointed and upset I am that I have to be this #sick and wait that much longer to talk to someone. That will book a few procedures, a few weeks away. So I'm more than a month off from starting a new #treatment and #medication ... still. I'm still on fucking #prednisone. I wasted my father's time, and... though he wasn't upset, I still blame myself. Even though I know damn well I didn't fuck this up? I still feel responsible. That's how I was conditioned, and this is what I strive to overcome with #cbt and staying with my #therapist. Anyway, my dad found this hardback copy of #deathofasalesman recently and bought it to gift to me, he gave it to me today. It's weird, because I had recently thought "it's a little weird that I'm kind of a literary nerd and never read that shit." And ALSO I am POSITIVE I never mentioned it aloud to anyone? But like, neat! I'm exhausted right now, but Im #stoked to have it and to start on it tomorrow while I recoup from the harsh reality that my only option is to continue to "hang tight" and make it from one miserable day to the next until I can start taking some god fucking awful medication that will compromise my immune system to steer this back into #remission. I wonder what it feels like to go ONE ENTIRE DAY without feeling totally inept with horrible #pain. Hmm. #justspooniethings#justsickchickthings#autoimmunedisease#crohnsdisease#crohnsbabe#chronicillness#chronicpain#chronicfatigue#spoonie#disabled#dadgifts#surprisegifts#bookgifts & #justbenicetomesometimesmanimhuman or leave me alone. 🖤⚡🖤