Please stop using plastic. Get shopping totes, use mason jars and glass to store things, buy bamboo or metal straws, wooden or horn combs, natural bristles. This is from the devastating @natgeo issue this month; plastic is at the base of the food chain, and settling in the deepest reaches of the ocean. #ocean#plastic#ban#bags#pollution#toxic#grief#earth#no#planet#bee
On the playlist this week: There Is Nothing I Can Do - The Organ Sometimes you come across with little musical jewels that change your life a bit. The Organ is one of those for me, I hadn’t mentioned this in a long time but there’s a special place in my heart for people who introduced me to music I love. This one came from a special friend from college and then became a lot more personal because one of this band’s favorite songs connected me with someone I love, it’s a very special band for me, it always brings back important feelings and memories, for that I will always be grateful to the one person who decided to show them to me. It’s so very special because the band is like a shooting star, beautiful, fleeting, so very unique and memorable. Their sound is one of a kind and so many of their songs just make me feel like I’ve known them, loved them and sung them all my life, it’s really something. This song captures their essence quite nicely, it’s very brief but powerful, really beautiful melodically, harmonically, and in terms of musical textures and color. It brings a special sense of longing which I can’t fully describe, but it also takes me back to a simpler time when everything wasn’t reduced to thinking about life or death, success of failure… I really like the feeling it brings, like a connection from past feelings which give me comfort and remind me that life isn’t always a struggle for survival or constant fear. I think I’ve started to try to make something positive about the past coming back to the present, trying to turn it into something positive instead of just letting it make me sad.
You would have been 14 this year. 14. Since the day you left this earth I’ve walked in a surreal universe.. You were everything I had worked my whole life to have... Every day I had spent dreaming of you since I was a child.. To one day have a child of my own. You were so wanted, so cherished.. When you were with me, I had never ever been happier in my life. Indescribable joy. And then, without warning, you were gone. A large part of my heart, my soul, my very being, along with everything I was before you died, went with you when you left. 14 years of trying to figure out what im supposed to do with my life. 14 years feeling your absence. 14 years of asking myself “what now?” And I still don’t know that answer... I never dreamed I’d be here .. without you. I do my best to make you proud, to do positive things in the world. All I ever wanted was to be a mother. You made me that. But it was supposed to be so different.. and as long as I live I will never understand this. Never understand why. Why others get to keep their children - many who don’t even want them or make time for them or deserve them..but I had to live without you. You’ve taught me so many lessons about life, about myself, about people around me, about love.. and most of all, you’ve taught me that love truly is stronger than death. 🌸💜 14 years ago feels like a month ago. I imagine who you would have been.. the music you would have loved, movies, interests, hobbies, passions, what your laugh would have sounded like.. I see mothers and daughters all the time who look alike and I remember how you looked just like me.. We would have been like those other mothers and daughters.. Except we would have been cooler than them. 😉 I’m sure of it. I MISS you, my little one. My everything.💜 #birthday#nia#daughter#stillborn#bereavedmother#missfoundation#dream#mother#family#love#death#life#youwouldhavebeen14#missingyou#soul#heart#everything#everyday#sad#joy#tears