@patrickstarrr Collection! #patrickstarrr ————————————————————————————— ✨FACE PREP: @glamglow Waterburst @farsalicare Gold Elixar ✨PRIMER: @toofaced Hangover ✨FOUNDATION: @narsissist Natural Radiant in Syracuse ✨CONCEALER: @tartecosmetics ShapeTape in Medium Tan ✨EYES: @maccosmetics x @patrickstarrr Me So Chic ✨MASCARA: @toofaced Better Than Sex ✨LINER: @stilacosmetics Stay All Day Liquid Liner ✨BROWS: @anastasiabeverlyhills dip pomade in Chocolate ✨BLUSH: @maccosmetics x @patrickstarrr I’m not Blushing ✨BRONZER: @anastasiabeverlyhills in Saddle - Golden Amber ✨HIGHLIGHT: @maybelline Master Chrome in Molten Gold ✨SETTING: @urbandecaycosmetics All Nighter Spray & @lauramercier Translucent Powder ✨LIPS: @maccosmetics x @patrickstarrr Sweet Mamastarr & Mamastarr kiss
Do you ever feel like you’re too scared to say you’re proud of something? To just allow yourself to pat yourself on the back and say “you did a good job.” It makes me feel like I’m putting myself in this vulnerable position of owning something, and then that fear of not being good enough creeps in. It’s like wearing a bikini in public when you’re unsure of yourself. I initially think I look good, but what will happen when other people see me? Will they think I look good? What if I don’t really look good? What if someone makes a rude comment? It all comes down to relying on some outside force for validation. Im so guilty of obsessing over my numbers. If I post something that doesn’t reach my goal of engagement, I get a ridiculous, overwhelming anxiety where I start to question why I’m even putting so much time and effort into these looks and this account. I shit you not, there was a period of time where I was debating creating my content, and then getting my husband to upload and manage everything for me, simply because I couldn’t handle the blow of feeling defeated by my numbers. Then I realized, Who fucking cares? Why does any of this matter? Numbers literally mean nothing. So in saying that, I put a lot of time, effort and some skill into this look. I’m proud of it. I worked hard just to get this shot. Do I think it’s my best work? Nope. Will this get much engagement? I doubt it. Will this ever get reposted by a brand? Probably not. Does any of that really matter? No. Be proud of who you are and the work you create.