Raw almond butter and a banana! This is my raw replacement for my date-peanut bars I used to make. I mentioned in the previous post about how today was such a great day! I felt kind of anxious this morning, but later on the anxiety lifted! I was outside for the majority of the day and it was so nice! I also felt completely comfortable with my body today! Even took some pictures for my other Instagram. Some days I’m more secure in my body than others. Today I saw a body that I love when I looked in the mirror, but not all days are like that. Tomorrow I could see something completely different. The clothes I recently bought (and was wearing today) felt completely different from when I tried them on (if that makes sense). When I was shopping for them, I felt gross and bloated. One of those days where I wasn’t secure at all. I always fear going into clothing stores and not fitting into the sizes I’m used to, even though most of the time I over-estimate my size. It’s so weird how powerful our minds can be. But I know that listening to my body is what I need to do. Ignore the toxic thoughts. The mind may be powerful, but bodies are smart. Also, I would like to make it CLEAR that ALL bodies are beautiful! 💜
I freakin’ love watermelon! Today was such a lovely day! It was my first day of the being home alone for a week! Don’t get me wrong, I love my parents, but I’m around them basically 24/7, which gets difficult. I swear that sometimes we’re at each other’s throats more often then not. I know it’s mainly because of how irritable I am. A lot of the time just a simple question asked at the ‘wrong’ time turns me into a nasty person. The worst is when my parents say something (jokingly most of the time, but not always) such as ‘don’t be lazy’ (clearly an exaggeration and a joke in context) which could just set me off. They know I’m not ‘lazy’. I know I’m not ‘lazy’. Them just saying that makes me shout out all the things I do and how they should just leave me alone blah blah blah. They more than likely said that in the first place, because they asked me to do something (jokingly) and I straight up said no, because I didn’t want to (or didn’t like the joke). I also seem to be more than irritable when they ask me do something and give me instructions that I already know or have been told what feels like a million times. It’s frustrating. I try so damn hard not be this way, but it’s hard. I’m working on it though. And hey, they’re not perfect either. Sometimes they get mad me for something totally not in my control. Example, the other night Netflix wasn’t working, so I suggested we turn off the T.V. and try again. But NOPE we had to go through forty minutes of hell and back until they finally listened to me. Other times they may just be frustrated with something else and taking it out on me. But I try not to get offended or take it heart anymore. They’re more than just parents. They are people. Adults with daily lives and stresses as well. After our latest argument, I think we all established that. Hope you had a great day! The highlight of my day was probably a husky coming into my yard! He still hasn’t left though.