It’s #facetofacefriday: this picture on the left is one of my least favorite photos of me of all time. I was out with my friends at a bar dancing to a Devo cover band having a great time, but when this picture popped up on Facebook the next day I couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t believe that was me. For a long time my weight has been like a suit of armor, a barrier between me and the world around me. A walk that kept me safe but also kept me isolated. After experiencing some trauma in my teen years I filled a void in my soul with food and while I hated my body I felt safe thinking that other people hated my body too. It’s hard to go through life hating yourself though, even if it keeps you safe. Every time I sat something out I wondered, would I have done it if I didn’t feel so ugly? Could I be living my life more fully? Will I regret the time I’ve wasted in the end? So that’s what I’m trying to do now. I’m trying to live life more fully, I’m trying to peel away my armor and tear down my walls so that I can experience the good in life even at the risk of being vulnerable to the bad. Just a little daily reminder to be gentle and kind to yourself, and to live your life as fully as you can! The biggest regrets in life will be the chances we didn’t take 🖤
So today was one of those days where I was over it before it even started. My 4 year old woke up hating the universe. He’s mad that he needs to flush the toilet, why do I need to brush my teeth, why do we need to go to school everyday, and then of course we need to throw a huge tantrum over what shoes we’re wearing right before we’re heading out the door. And then you have the teething 18 month old that wants to cry bloody murder wherever you go unless you pick him up 24/7. Yea I was ready to push that pause button and just run away! But you know what helped? WORKING OUT. Seriously, before even the thought of just moving up and down exhausted me. But it actually MAKES A DIFFERENCE. It makes a difference between “I hate my kids and don’t want to be a mom anymore” and “OK, I need a mental break and time for MYSELF”. 25 mins. That’s how long I worked out today, and it makes a difference.
HELLZ to the YEAH, it’s freakin Friday + I am SO happy to wrap up another amazing week of our May Bootcamp + our Makeover Your Mindset Nutrition Group! 👯♀️ // One of the things about my business that brings me the greatest joy is putting together killer content + offering amazing groups to which will benefit + move their health + fitness journeys forward👌🏻 // The summer months are upon us (im not sure what’s going on with LA’s weather right now tho 🤣) so I want to help those of you ready to get Summer Strong by plugging you into a group that fits your needs, personality + goals! // It’s time be the person IN the photos, ROCKING the bikini, looking SASSY in that Summer dress + feeling HELLA confident all summer long! // Is there something you’re looking forward to in the summer months ahead? Let’s hear what you have coming up 🏄♀️🌞👙
This is everything💫!!! I spent my whole life thinking I would be happy when I lost the weight. I was waiting to be happy based on the number on a scale, I thought when I lose the weight I would finally be happy. . . I would let that number on the scale determine if I would have a good or bad day every time I stepped on it. Can anyone relate 🙋🏻♀️?!? . . It doesn’t have to be that way, you can end your struggle right now by changing your thinking about your weight and eliminating the belief “When I lose the weight I will be happy” that thought is keeping you stuck. . . Happiness is something you create with your mind 🧠 and your thinking. You are just one new belief away from feeling happy, freedom or peace with your body today!!!!
Hope everyone is having a wonderful Friday! Because I rarely fix my hair I feel it’s a must to document! Today I finally had my appointment for my knees & I still do not know much. Of course the first steps are to start physical therapy so we will see. I’m unsure about it but hopeful! Has anyone went through this kind of thing? What should I expect? I’m a little nervous about it and I’m definitely ready to get back to my workouts. Trying to remember to give myself some grace and just let go of what I can’t control🙏🏻 So until then I am planning on enjoying this beautiful weather & having a wonderful weekend! Wishing everyone a safe & happy Memorial Day weekend!